Missing: The Best Dress Ever

I spent much of my day simultaneously playing No Man’s Sky and working on my web site. What I should have spent a bit of time doing today was getting together my outfit for the ballet on Saturday night. The plan … after trying on everything I own and even considering buying something new … was to wear my black Calvin Klein sweater dress, accompanied by whatever accoutrements to fit the season we happen to be having the moment I prepare to walk out the door (maybe summer, maybe winter … anyone’s guess). Well, after goofing off all day, I go to the bedroom to get out the dress, and it where I expected it to be. I resisted the urge to panic. Surely, I just put it in another drawer.

Every drawer was opened. Each piece of clothing was touched (more than once). Still no dress. Panic began creeping in around the edges. It’s my favorite dress. Ever. It’s the only dress I have ever happily worn without complaint. I love my Calvin Klein sweater dress! It can be dressed up or down and is perfect for every cold weather occasion! What will I wear if I can’t find it? I carefully searched all the drawers again. Unsurprisingly, the dress was still not in the chest of drawers.

I gazed upon the closet doors. I’d have had to be out of my mind to hang the dress in the closet. Never hang a sweater dress. They stretch in terrible ways, and they never recover. Don’t ask how I know. It’s a tale of tragic woe. I checked the closet anyway, and thankfully, I hadn’t had a moment of total insanity and hung my favorite dress on a hanger. All the same, still no sweater dress. Panic was doing more than creeping in at this point.

I’d now spent well over an hour digging through all my clothing (I even checked the linen drawers), and not only had I not found the dress, I had no idea what I might have done with it. I flopped on the bed and stared at the ceiling. What the hell would I wear to the ballet? Was I doomed to either wearing something I don’t actually like … or spending tomorrow frantically digging through my fabric stash and sewing something new? Neither option seemed acceptable.

The husband arrived home from work. I set upon him as soon as he opened the front door and explained my dire crisis. He suggested we go buy a new dress on Saturday. As if I can just walk into any store and find something that actually fits me and that I like well enough to pay money to own! I’ve been shopping for new clothing for months and have found nothing! I shambled back to the bedroom and rustled through the drawers some more, as if my sweater dress might magically appear out of thin air. It did not.

As I prepared to try on all possible outfits again, resigned to the fate of having to wear something I’d already decided I didn’t want to wear, I noticed the lingerie chest and had a thought. Did I put my favorite dress of all time in one of those drawers? Doubtful. I mean, why would I? That’d be a silly place to keep it. I decided to check anyway. Might as well be thorough.

Top drawer … hand knit winter hats and gloves. No dress.

Second drawer … hand knit scarves and socks. No dress.

Third drawer … silk scarves and fancy belts. No dress.

Fourth drawer … something wrapped in tissue paper. What the actual hell? I pull back the top layer of paper, and there … carefully folded with a little lavender potpourri packet on top … was my Calvin Klein sweater dress! Date night was saved! I could go to the ballet, be comfy, and have fun! I might even look moderately stylish and put together!

Now all I have to do is wait to see what the weather decides to do Saturday night, so I can pick appropriate hosiery and shoes. I’m sorta hoping it’s cold enough to warrant black tights and my black boots, but it’s been in the 70s at night all week, so maybe not. May even be too warm for a sweater dress, but I’m wearing it no matter what. It truly is the best dress ever, and I’ll be returning it to its special drawer where it will wait patiently, wrapped in tissue paper with a little lavender potpourri packet on top, until the next time I don’t know what to wear to a social event.

Hopefully, I don’t forget I put it there next time I need it!

Thing Done

It had been my intention to be fully back to regularly posting on my blog, sending out a cute weekly newsletter, and throwing myself fully back into the creative process by January. This felt like a totally achievable goal. Things had been doing well enough, and while I do seem to be getting things done at a slower rate than in the past, I had been getting things done. But now, I’m back down in the grief hole, and everything feels impossible.

The big important for me project I had planned to get done today was clearing space on my work table so making art would be possible, even if unlikely to happen, and I did manage to get that done. Nothings fully organized yet, but there’s space to work, so maybe it happens, maybe it doesn’t. Maybe the table gets filled with the debris of life again. Onky time will tell.
A medium brown wooden table covered with piles of art supplies with a small clear space in the middle where work might be done.

It’s All Too Much

I’ve had another friend pass away. He went silent on Twitter in early November, and I suspected the worst. But with an ocean between us and no overlap between our social circles, confirming my fears was difficult. Yesterday was his birthday, so I stopped in at Facebook, and now I know.
A heavy set man with short ginger hair and a bushy mustache carrying a petite slender girl with short blonde hair. Both are smiling broadly. They stand in front of a dorm building sign saying Crumley Hall. This is Paul. He was a dear friend and an amazing human being. I’m going to do my best to live in this moment right here and remember how much fun we had together and all the silliness we got up to … and there was a lot of silliness. I’m going to miss him very much. Very, very much.

I’ll likely be very quiet again for a while. I’d already gone quite quiet the last week or so, because the holidays were really hitting hard. Grief has burst forth into my life as a big thing again, and now another person to add to the list. It’s all just too much.

Just Babbling

After two weeks of nasty, cold, wet and gross, winter weather, suddenly it’s hot enough I’ve had to open windows to cool the house off. At night. The windows are open right now. I’m sweating. I don’t like it. Could it just pick a season? I am thankful to have had some sunshine though. It’s greatly improved my mood.

This week isn’t going to plan. Do they ever? Yesterday, while I was attempting to watch tutorial videos to remind myself I know how to do things, the internet went out. It was off and on until early evening. Not remembering I know how to do things slowed down today’s doing of things. So now I’m behind on the weekly plan. I’ll never catch up.

Then, like the idiot I am, I stayed up way too late last night playing No Man’s Sky, and 7 am felt like it came even earlier than usual. It was a two coffee sorta day. Didn’t help much, but I did manage to get a few household tasks done before I dropped from fatigue. Not any of the important ones like the weird sound the furnace is now making, or the sudden loss of water pressure in the kitchen, but I’m sure the husband will appreciate having clean underwear.

So I’ve been over on Mastodon for about a week now, and I think I like it? All the people who tell you that it doesn’t matter which server you join though, they are lying. It matters. If I’d have just joined some random server, I think I would have hated it. It is very different. It does take some getting used to. I’m figuring it out. At least I haven’t encountered any Nazis or other bigots, and that’s been nice.

I guess I don’t actually have much of anything to report! I just felt like babbling, and I can’t get back to writing long winded posts of substance, if I don’t first get reacquainted with writing something longer than a Tweet. So I’ll babble when I feel like babbling.

Side Note: Still working on putting together a newsletter. Still working on a new site design. Also still working on the knitting project, and my work table is half cleared, so maybe some other artsy craftsy stuff soon. I hope so, anyway.

Such Length!

Last night, the husband noted my hair is now well below my tailbone. It’s brushing the top of my thighs … longest it’s ever been. It’s true I didn’t do my annual trimming of four inches this year, as the ends were not split and had grown very evenly. I thought that when I stopped putting my hair up in a bun every day and just let it hang down wild and free it would be utterly destroyed, leading to needing to cut a lot of it off. Perhaps I even hoped for that, because I can’t seem to cut lots of my hair off until it must be done. Alas, the opposite has happened. It now appears that the constant bun wearing was actually damaging my hair! Now I know!

I do need to find a way to get it out of my way though. I can’t wear the topknot anymore. Causes headaches and scalp pain. My hair is just too heavy for that now. Aside from leaving it completely free, I do deploy a low ponytail or simple braid, but that still leaves a lot of hair to get into things. I’ve not yet found any way to fully contain it that doesn’t lead to scalp pain or headache, mostly because I also need it to be super simple to do. I am inept at working with my own hair, and my hair has a willful mind of its own. If I keep wearing it fully down though, there’s going to be a hair tragedy at some point.

I’ve also been working on accepting my hair as it is. This is actually the bigger challenge. While I may want perfectly straight and silky hair, that is not the hair I was born with, and I refuse to use chemicals to achieve it. So I should learn to love the hair I have, and that hair has texture. It’s what happens when wavy fine hair gets too long/heavy and the the waves can’t form. I’ve considered using products to help form waves, but then I’d have to wash my hair more often than I do, and let me tell you, washing butt length thigh length hair is tedious and irritating. The days of me washing my hair multiples of times a week is long over. Ain’t nobody got the time or energy for that these days!

Anyway, I was just brushing my hair and trying to decide what to do with it, because I have to go out into the world today and run some errands. Had some thoughts and thought I’d share. I’m trying to get back into the habit of blogging and sharing whatever silliness pops into my head. It feels weird. It’ll stop feeling weird eventually. I used to post multiples of times a day about all manner of boring mundane subjects. I’d like to get back to that. For some crazy reason, my friends enjoy it.

And now I better make some lunch, so I can get to those errands. At least we have sunshine today! I’ve missed the sun so much. Hope it sticks around a while, but I bet not.