This week hasn’t been going as planned. If it was going as planned, I would be combining the two figures into one and nearing completion of this particular art project. Oh were that true, I would be pleased, but it’s not. I started feeling pretty crappy on Saturday night, and that has not improved. It’s only gotten worse. Damn my allergies and the pollen producing plants! My options have been to either take antihistamines and breath (and not have eyes that are nearly swollen shut) or not take them and REALLY feel like crap. Both choices leave me really incapable of focusing or thinking or concentrating on anything, so I haven’t gotten much work on the project done at all … mostly for fear of screwing something up. Yes, pills or no pills, when my allergies are trying to kill me, I am prone to accidents. I do not want to have an accident of any sort with my art project.
So I’ve been drugging myself, because breathing is better than not breathing, and having a slight headache is better than feeling like my head is going to explode. I’ve been cooking and baking and reading, catching up on some of my TV shows, and doing a bunch of sketches for future arty things. And lots of napping. Can’t really help that, as even non-drowsy antihistamines make me drowsy. Three days into the week, and I haven’t really got much of anything to show for it. I’ve been trying to be productive, but I’ve been failing miserably while being pretty miserable in general. Well, there’s always tomorrow, right?
I am feeling a little better today, so I am hoping tomorrow I feel even better. Not counting on it though, seeing as they have declared this the worst ragweed season in ages. But … I can hope! If it would rain, that would at least give me a day or two of not feeling like a sneezing, wheezing, coughing blob of snot, which would be wonderful. It’s getting cloudy now, but I bet we don’t see any actual rain. I’m keeping my fingers crossed all the same. Come on … RAIN!
On top of feeling wretched, there’s some family drama going on again. Just what I needed! End result of the combination of the two things has been me sitting around like a lump trying to get some work done but mostly just fretting and stewing and being cranky. Why couldn’t everything just keep going smoothly for two more weeks?! Then this project would be over and I could spend some time being a lump of useless snot!
Oh well, nothing to be done about it but hope I start feeling better, and whether or not I do forcing myself to get this thing done by the deadline. I’m sure I will, but I wanted to get done BEFORE the deadline to avoid the stress of it approaching. You know, so I could take a couple of days to maybe sew myself a new outfit to wear in Chicago, or clean the house really well so Vince won’t freak out when he comes to feed the cats.
Anyway, pardon the whining. I just felt the need to whine for a moment. Time to take another pill, do the dishes, and have some coffee.