Are you able to scream? At all? For any reason?

I don’t mean get mad and yell at someone. I mean let out a loud and alarming scream … out of real fear or for fun or on rollercoasters.

Though there have been times in my life, when letting out some sort of scream would have been the very thing any average human would do, I didn’t. I do not have an automatic scream even under sudden and extreme stress conditions. I do have an automatic full intake of breath and a quick trigger on the adrenalin and everything becomes crystal clear. I have an excellent fight-or-flight response, which leans heavily toward flight … due to my small size and structure. But no screams. Ever.

I don’t even scream in my nightmares, and I do sometimes have awful nightmares in which I would like to scream, but nope … can’t scream. Or just don’t. React just like I do when I am awake.

This wasn’t a learned skill. It is one of my innate traits. It’s pure instinct. It doesn’t seem normal not to have some sort of scream involved though. Don’t most people have some sort of loud scream-like sound they make when they are freaked right the hell out?

I’ve always wondered if maybe it was because I just hadn’t found anything worthy of screaming, but then I consider some of the things I have seen and experienced, and that can’t possibly be true. There were a few scream-worthy things.

Just a weird and lofty thought at 3 am, because I am feeling some strange kind of stress and can’t sleep. I should really be asleep.