I got the dishes done. OK, not ALL of them. There were three bowls that require a little soaking. You’d think I’d learn to rinse out bowls after using them to make anything doughy, but no … I never seem to learn.

I’m getting really determined to do something about the state of this house. I can’t take the clutter anymore. Lin seems to think I don’t mind the clutter, but the truth is I have gotten used to ignoring it. I’m not going to get any help getting rid of it, no matter how long I wait for that to happen, and so I have GOT to do something about all the junk we don’t need, don’t use, and could do without. It’s impossible to clean around it, and moving it to clean is out of the question. There aren’t enough hours in the day to get THAT done.

I found a web site, FlyLady, that has a system for creating good household habits for cleaning and de-cluttering … slowly, over time. At first glance, it seemed silly and stupid, but after reading through the web site, I’ve decided to give it a go. I’m going to do my best to stick to it too. I really want this to work. I suck at getting this stuff done without someone telling me what to do when. I have to have an agenda, a plan, a mission. I think this system might give me that. We’ll see how that goes.

Additionally, I am going to print myself up a daily planner using the templates at D*I*Y Planner. I don’t know where my daily planner notebook from college is, so until I run across it while de-cluttering the house, I guess I’ll have to clip the pages together. That’ll do for now. I was a much happier and better organized person when I used a daily planner. I don’t know why I ever stopped. Oh, wait … yes I do. The reason is utterly unimportant. I just shouldn’t have ever stopped that good habit I had of being super-organized with my life. It’s going to be hard to get back into that again, but as with doing something about the house, I am determined to succeed at using a daily planner again as well.

I have GOT to get my life in order and on a schedule. I can’t take it anymore. Left to my own devices, I’d be doing dishes at 3 am, watching stupid old movies or educational TV shows until dawn, and then sleeping the day away. While some aspects of that make me happy, overall, it’s not a great way to live.

Of course, somewhere along the line I hope to figure out what to do about the insomnia that makes staying up all night even when I have been up all day seem like the thing to do. This may or may not require actually taking pills to deal with it. I am not thrilled with that idea, but at some point I may try some over-the-counter products first and see what happens.

I just want to be normal, you know? I just want to be awake during the day like a normal person, have a presentable house like a normal person, and know what’s happening when in my life like a normal person. I’m probably asking too much of myself.