I’m going to be discussing “female troubles” inside. Nothing gross, but I thought I’d warn the guys they might be bored or uninterested in reading it. :)

Aunt Flo is now 41 days late in arriving. This marks the first time I have missed a period in over 5 years.

I’m not pregnant, and while admittedly I was very sick last month (at the same time as my period) and then had all that heavy stress with the cat’s illness and death, this is weird. I have been sick and stressed out and lost lots of weight before and it only pushed back my period by a few days … and I still felt hormonal and “pre-period” the whole time. I am not feeling hormonal. Not at all, and that’s strange, because at this stage of what my normal cycle is I would be winding up for this month’s period which is due on the 25th. I’d be feeling the beginnings of PMS right now. I know my body. My body is not acting the way it usually does.

Now I am beginning to wonder if this is the actual start of true menopause. I’ve been dealing with the hot flashes and other hormonal changes for almost three years now. It’s been pretty awful at times, especially since Xmas. The hot flashes and night sweats have been terrible. There is nothing worse than waking up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom and realizing that you have sweated so much in your sleep that you have to change clothes and the bed is all damp. Yuck. So anyway, it’s possible I’m finally getting to the point where Aunt Flo is finally going to stop visiting altogether.

I’m wondering if that whole strange and unknown illness was my body’s way of saying goodbye to fertility. We never did figure out what made me so sick in the first place, and even had I not been so sick, it would have been the worst period I’d had in ages. I’ve never heard of anyone having that sort of reaction to menopause, and I always expected it to be more of a “skip a period, have a period, go a longer time between them” sort of thing before they finally just sort of stopped showing up at all. Every woman is different though, even within families. So it’s hard to say. There have also been some other changes to the workings of my female organs which I won’t go into. Let’s just say that “things” are different, so I am wondering what’s going on.

Anyway, I just wanted to make note of that, because as much as I have been looking forward to the day I would never have a period again since the very first one when I was 18, I’m finding myself feeling a little weird about it now that it might be happening. Who knows, maybe my body is just taking a little break, but for me to be late at all (by even a day or two) is highly unusual. I guess all I can do now is wait and see what’s up.